Anti Perfectionism
Yesterday I fixed my bike. It needed new breaks and a new chain. Afterwards I went out with some friends and had a nice long gravel ride. Normally on a Saturday I sit 1-2 hours in front of my laptop and type some thoughts into the keyboard. Then later that day at 6pm my time those thoughts go out to you.
Not this week. I just enjoyed the time out and sitting together with friends afterwards and having a chat. But, and this is the interesting part, for a moment I felt pressure. I’m totally aware nobody waits for my newsletter to arrive, but there was this feeling of I let someone down.
When things feel a bit uncomfortable nowadays I try to ask myself why.
My answer this time: It felt like I break my own promise. Also I thought this is such a nice streak, releasing week after week. I can’t let it go. And what if someone actually enjoys reading it at the time I release it?
At the same time I felt exactly this urge - to just let it go. To experience this discomfort. To decide against the perfect streak.
I’m happy I did. Since yesterday I thought several times about when I will write this weeks letter. It showed me that it matters to me. That I enjoy doing this. I never tried to make this big. I just put in the reps. Most of the weeks I enjoy it. Some I don’t. Some weeks I have exciting ideas. Sometimes my life is boring and I struggle to find a thing to write about. But still, I come back to it.
What I will try to do more is ask myself why I hold some things so tense, and others with ease. And asking if the status quo isn’t actually great but rather a result of habits.
What I can tell you is that I very much enjoyed yesterday and today - and that is what it’s all about.
If that resonates – I’d love to hear your story
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